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YoooOOo, finally im back on friendster again, its been almost a year since my last blog post here. haha. Well, looking back at what i’ve posted a year ago, i actually wonder about what i was thinking at that time. Yea, you are not hearing things, I don’t even know that i posted weird stuffs on my blog. Its like.. Did i post that? how did i do that? Like the poem or the second post thingy.. i totally forgot. geez..is it me getting older now? forgetting things so easily like an old man –__–, that’s sad.

Anyway, i just realize that a lot of things had happened to me since earlier 2008 which makes it becomes one of the best year in the past 5 years my life here in Australia (you can guess.. that means my life here been quite s*beep*ck..that if i look back on how i would go on my life, i dun think i want to experience it again)..Yea, finally hard time has finished.

Ppl always change, they never stay the same, that’s the power of time. Time change everything, you like it or not, it will not be there forever. Human lives no more than 140 years (if someone can even survive that long… geezz that’s like since the period where my grand pa proposed my grandma, until i got married and have children.. hahaha, joking). There are ppl who can  live up to 120 years in Japan, yea, 120 years!!! Apparently she sleeps for 3 days and wake up for a day to eat and do stuffs and back to sleep lolx. Anyway, when you are around 70 years, you pretty much already entering the last stage of your life, so before that do the best in life and enjoy it!!

Ah, and we never know what’s gonna happen in the next second, and this is true!! i was walking down from glen centro and was thinking of going back to teach, then all of a sudden i got a message from one of my fren and ask me to go for a bowl (just make up tho…hehe). Just be really careful of those happenings, otherwise have a good life!

sitting by the window
look upon the sky
gazing at the cloud
why are you there?

this is life
life for nobody would ever seen
for its emptiness
on all of its glory

i would scream
i would hit
i would scratch
i would do all it takes
to get rid from you

i would scream
i would cry
i would hide
i would do all it takes
to get rid from me

this is life
for nobody would ever care
for its craziness
on all its glory

i would scream
i would hit
i would scratch
i would do all it takes
to get rid from you

i would scream
i would cry
i would hide
i would do all it takes
to get rid from me

why would never anyone can get my feelings
for my anger and my loneliness
not even me understand my own feelings
all i know is that
this is because of you

Editor’s note:
This probably isn’t the most interesting lyric. I just simply had ago with it. Its got vew weird spot where the sentences is not quite clear about its meaning. It also contains some weird accentuation when you put it into song. I actually couldnt find the right melody neither. So just treat it more like a poem. The theme is about autistic people really not about me.

i tell you what, knowledge will let you survive and decisions that you make determine your quality. All of those you can gain through learning, but experience will be something that you will never have without the action of doing. Improving your experience does not means doing different things. Just as we know quantity, there is always quality. The hardest things to do is how we can invent new things through past experiences. It is the PROCESS of INVENTIONS that you call as TRUE EXPERIENCE.

Minna-san, doumo. Watakushi sesukaku to iimasu. Konkai no watakushi no hanashi wa "kono naka ni iru Hannin" no hanashi desu. Ningen wa hoka no ningen wo korosukoto ga dekimasu. Souiu ningen wa saiyaku no ningen desu. Tadashi, moshi sonna ningen ga watakushitachi no naka ni ireba, dou shimasuka? Kore ga "kono naka ni iru Hannin" to iu hanashi desu.

Sesukaku   

Yo gaisu…(yo guys), houu aruu yuu? (how are you), afutaa a ron-gu taimu ai fuainarii ken apudaito mai burogu (after a long time, i finally can update my blog), sorii foo mai bado engurishuu (sorry for my bad english), butoo ai wiiru turaii mai besuto tu spiiku esu kuriaaru esu possiburu (but, i will try to speak as clear as possible):

Guudo naiitoo!! (Good Night) ^______^

orang gendut!! hehe, terus tinggal perutnya doang.. perutnya terus goyang2, habis itu naik tangga dari bawah 4 langkah. terus lompat2 kayak orang gila, tambah lama tambah tinggi. eh, habis itu kok cuman jalan di tempat sih.. hore.. main roller coaster dia, habis 4 putaran, pusing, eh masih main lagi, 4 putaran lagi deh.. jadi carousel. kok malah main terjun payung sih… naik turun naik turun lagi ehhehe…

guys.. kalo ga ngerti apa yang aq ngomongin di atas, mending ga ngerti juga ga apa2, maklum, itu adalah cara berpikir orang yang udah terlalu jenius, jadi pikirannya efektif dan efisien?

percaya ga? ^___________^?

eh eh eh… kalo pikiranku emang seperti itu apa aq orang gila ya?

ooo tentu dong

wah.. bahaya dong… itu aq gila ato jenius ya?

hmm

hmmm

ga bisa bilang juga sih

mungkin jenius kali ya

gila kali?

enak aja loe…

shit…

apa? ga terimo ta? kene tak hajare…

ga wes, sampekno, turu sek yo

osashiburi.. kyou no posto wa tokubetsu no posto desu. Haiii… kono mama de nihongo de messeji wo kaku.. hontou ni muzukashii naa. nanto kana.. yatte miru iru hito wo mitai naa.. taihen ne. Tonikaku, kore de ii desu.

Kyou, ichigatsu jugoka nisenshichinen, gosen ichij ni, boku no heya de kono messeji wo kaku. Sonna taihen koto dewa nai, tada chisai koto dake. Sore ga boku no mondai da. Kono messeji wa mirai no boku no tame ni kaku. Makenaisa, mada akirametakunai, kimi wa dooka shitemo, mada jikan ga aru kara, zettai ni makenai. Zutto zutto ganbatte. Kimi no chikara ni shinjite kureru. Ganbattereba, nani mo dekiru, so kimetanda. Yatte miroyo.. kono sekai de kimi wa hitori ja nai. Tomodachi ga aru kara, sono tame ni ikiteiru.

tsukareta.. demo.. kotae wo sagasu… kotae wo mitsuketa made, sono toki made, tomaranai. Kono koto wa wasurenaide kudasai. Wasurereba, taihen desu. Ja na.

osashiburi.. kyou no posto wa tokubetsu no posto desu. Haiii… kono mama de nihongo de messeji wo kaku.. hontou ni muzukashii naa. nanto kana.. yatte miru iru hito wo mitai naa.. taihen ne. Tonikaku, kore de ii desu.

Kyou, ichigatsu jusanka nisenrokunen, gosen ichij ni, boku no heya de kono messeji wo kaku. Sonna taihen koto dewa nai, tada chisai koto dake. Sore ga boku no mondai da. Kono messeji wa mirai no boku no tame ni kaku. Makenaisa, mada akirametakunai, kimi wa dooka shitemo, mada jikan ga aru kara, zettai ni makenai. Zutto zutto ganbatte. Kimi no chikara ni shinjite kureru. Ganbattereba, nani mo dekiru, so kimetanda. Yatte miroyo.. kono sekai de kimi wa hitori ja nai. Tomodachi ga aru kara, sono tame ni ikiteiru.

tsukareta.. demo.. kotae wo sagasu… kotae wo mitsuketa made, sono toki made, tomaranai. Kono koto wa wasurenaide kudasai. Wasurereba, taihen desu. Ja na.

Kore wa boku no kotoshi no ichiban no posto desu. Jikan wa hayai ne. Kyonen ga owatta. Ichinenkan, iro iro koto wa takusan ga arimasu. Sono koto mo owatta. Dakara, mirai wa saiko no memorii o tsukuritai. Tabun.. ima no boku wa nani mo dekinakatta.. demo, mirai no boku wa iro iro koto ga dekiru. Dakara, boku wa zutto zutto ganbatte imasu. Zettai ni makenai, zettai ni tatakae. Kore wa boku no kotoshi no mission desu.

biar accessnya limited, pake bahasa indo ya.. A-ya itu simbol yg aq bikin berdasarkan seorang cewe bernama Aya.. pianis yg aq temuin di youtube, belajar di Liszt academy umur 19. Iseng aja sih pake nama dia buat judul blog sekarang ini, heuheu. Kalau dipikir2 namanya mirip dgn Ayu— yep, bahasa indo emang ayu=cakep, anaknya emang cakep sih ^___^, tp Ayu yang ini bukan ayunya bahasa indo, alias Ayumi Hamasaki. Jd inget de, barusan ini jg ketemu dia di youtube, kelupaan lyric di waktu konser, eh malah bikin fans tambah suka bukan benci (asal jg setiap lagu lupa laa..). Artis hebat, dulu temenq ada yg nunjukin videone ke aq sih, cuman mgk karena waktu itu aq cmn ngeliat, jadi g inget..saa..

kalo diinget2 lagi, orang2 indo kalo kelupaan suka bilang aaah-iyaaa.. (bunyinya mirip kan hehe), ternyata bahasa indo dan jepang itu hubungannya banyak jg ya), padahal jaraknya segitu jauuuhhnya, kyk langit dan bumi (utara n tengah2 sih.. tp dah cenderung selatan, terutama pulau jawa).

ini lanjutan dari yg post lalu yg pakai bahasa jawa, sekarang lebih bahasa indo yang formal, heuheuheu. Begitulah, sekian, ja matta……